Hey Nonso,

I can’t lie, I’m heartbroken. Absolutely shattered. My heart gets so heavy sometimes I can hardly breathe. But this is not about me.

I’m sorry about what happened. No one expected it. I was so happy to see you on Sunday that I gave you a big hug, twice. I had missed you. Now I miss you. I didn’t realize I loved you so much. You were like a brother to me. You’re a great guy.

Who’s going to pray with me on Thursday evenings now?

Who’s going to suggest we spend all our public holidays and free time praying together?

Who’s going to plan the “Set Apart” for the Prayer Unit?

Who’s going to prolong meetings by bringing up prayer point after prayer point?

Who’s going to tell us to not be in a hurry to end meetings because “suntin is about to happen”

Who’s going to be our prophet and tell us the mind of God?

Who’s going to call people out and pray for them?

Who’s going to call me “Great man”, or “Apostle”, or “Big man”?

Who can love God like you did? Who can do the things you did?


You had escaped the fire, why did you go back? Why did you have to be a hero? I know the devil caused the fire. Jesus taught us that whenever we see death, loss and destruction it’s the devil’s work. But I will never believe the devil manipulated you into going back. He doesn’t have that type of hold over God’s children. If he does then none of us would be alive. I know you, the only reason why you went back in there was because you thought God will never let the fire harm you. You went back in faith, and maybe a little too much adrenaline.

I’m not going to say Jesus wanted you gone from earth, but I’m sure He allowed it. Of course He could have gotten someone to stop you from going back inside the conflagration. Of course He could have made you stumble and fall so you would be too injured to go back in. He allowed it, but why He did I don’t know.

I know that Jesus holds the key to death and hell, and for this reason death cannot take any of His own without His consent. And I know the gates of hell will never open its mouth for any son of God to walk in. Hell was not made for children of God but for devils. I know you’re in heaven. I know all these things. But hey, I’m still devastated.

And you know what? It’s our loss but your gain.

You finally get to see our Lord Jesus Christ. How elated you must be!

Speaking of Jesus, please help me tell Him I love Him. And after you tell Him, tell Him again. Tell Him to please keep me from falling and failing Him. Tell Him to give me more of Him. Please, tell Him to keep me from failing Him.

I was going to say See you soon. But I’m sure my mum is reading this and I don’t want her to get scared. So, see you when God says so.

I love you man.



3. Anecdotes of Sharing Tracts

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I met the most intriguing young man, Shina, while sharing tracts yesterday. He’s not the kind of guy I’d normally share tracts to. Usually when sharing I deliberately avoid certain individuals: The weird looking people, the hard faced men, the intimidating roadside thugs, the red eyed policemen, the cantankerous market women [who use tracts as tissue papers], the dirty looking beggars and the mentally unstable folks.

What an irony of the gospel of Jesus!

I must have been deceived. How could I forget the words of Jesus in Luke 4:18: The Spirit of the Lord is upon me, because he hath anointed me to preach the gospel to the poor! The poor had often been neglected. No one cared for them, no one preached to them and no one tried to set them free from bondage. And that’s why Jesus had to come, to heal the brokenhearted, to preach deliverance to the captives and recovering of sight to the blind, to set at liberty those who are oppressed.

But back to the story, for some reason yesterday as I walked past this dark skinned, smelly and confused looking young man I handed him one of my tracts. I had walked about 150 metres from that spot when he called from behind. It had taken him three minutes of careful consideration to decide whether he was going to bother this tract sharing native wearing young man with his problems. I’m glad he did.

As Shina spoke I was overwhelmed seeing and hearing how much people actually suffer all through life. In summary, he had just ran away from home and absolutely swore not to ever go back. His father, a “pastor” had six wives and ran a chaotic home. His grandmother was so diabolical that everyone related to her had mental issues, him included. And when she heard at the turn of the year that he had resolved to get help to stabilize mentally she had him tied, flogged again and again, and fed all sorts of diabolical concoctions. As he spoke he finished every single sentence with a “sir” and I tried to get him to stop to no avail.

This young man had been through so much. He was clearly suffering from some sort of mental illness. He kept saying “I need help sir. I need Jesus sir. I don’t know what is wrong with me sir. I know I am not normal sir. I need Jesus to help me and make me normal sir”. I had always thought and heard that the day “mad” people admit they were “mad”, they had been healed. But Shina sounded like someone whose real and intelligent self was being trapped and suppressed by some stronger spirit. His name Shina means “Open Doors”, but every good door in this young man’s life seemed to be permanently shut, and abandoned.

I felt for him deeply and invited him into my church for the Bible Study. A lot of people -from the security lady at the gate to members seated next to him- looked at him askance. But everyone remained decorous because he was with me. He sat quietly through the Bible Study and impressively read aloud scripture when asked to. But he had his head down the entire evening. He was a young man extremely low on confidence.

At the end I introduced him to a Pastor who prayed for him and urged him to go back home. He was obstinate and reiterated that he would be killed by his folks when if he returned. I prayed with him for the third time and assured him that Jesus would keep him unscathed. He smiled [astonishingly] and promised to serve Jesus for life if He does.

I’m certain Shina’s life has turned around and I’m glad God led me to him. Never again will I neglect the poor and disadvantaged. Never again will I share tracts to only people I think can read. The only word needed for this gospel is Jesus“Jesus loves you, please love Him back” was all Shina heard and he turned to the Lord. May the Lord keep him forever.

Let’s pray for Shina,

Lord Jesus thank you because we believe you are turning Shina’s life around. Thank you because the time to favor him has come. Build him and use him Lord, make him great. And Lord we pray also for all those suppressed by the devil, those suffering so much everyday because of Satan’s wickedness, set them free Lord! And use me to bring light and hope to this dark world. Amen.

2. The Pain of Promise


  The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient – 2 Peter 3:9

Almost every Christian I know has a personalized promise which they all hold on to very dearly. Do you have a promise from God? I’m not talking of something you conjured up or some scripture you chant mindlessly at church every Sunday. And I’m definitely not talking of something random your Pastor said. I’m talking of a special promise God gave you directly from His lips to your heart.

Promises are great you know. We get very excited when we hear God speak specifically to us about a particular thing. It always feels good to hear that God knows you personally and has great plans for your life. But I’ve found that promises -a great gift from God- can turn into a source of distress in one’s life if not properly managed. As any matured Christian has discovered, promises do not always manifest immediately. It’s almost like waiting is a major part of most of God’s promises. Waiting can be torturous, especially when it’s longer than expected. Sometimes it can be a period of doubt and anguish, but only if we let it.

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1. Heaven’s Testimony


And the Lord said unto Satan, Hast thou considered my servant Job, that there is none like him in the earth, a perfect and an upright man, one that feareth God, and escheweth evil? – Job 1:8

What is heaven’s testimony of you? Have you ever wondered what God says about you when He’s describing and having conversations about you? Does he boast about you like He did of Job? I believe God does think and talk about us to others, and He wants us to be conscious of this. Jesus even urged us in John 5:44 to “try to win praise from the one who alone is God”. Does God praise you?

I used to cringe anytime I imagined God assessing me because I knew I wasn’t doing enough. My output has in no way been commensurate with God’s input in my life. Well, God must have seen my worry because in October 2017 He decided to tell me what He really thinks about me, or at least what He thought.

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Bad to Worse

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Evildoers [and imposters] will go from bad to worse, deceiving and being deceived. – 2 Timothy 3:13 NIV

There’s a principle in life. We tend to improve on the things we continue to do, whether good or evil. The righteous man walks on a path that shines brighter and brighter until he attains perfection [Proverbs 4:18], while evil doers get more and more evil, going from bad to worse.

If you asses your life today you should find some good things in them. It may be little things like fellowshipping daily with God, attending church often, giving generously etc. Keep at them, don’t get weary. I can assure you that you as a Christian you will only get better and better, till you’re absolutely perfect like Jesus. On the other hand, are there some not so good things you currently engage in?

The things you watch today, the stuff you listen to, the company you keep, the conversations you have, the places you go, the things you enjoy… Are these things leading you to the right hand of the throne of God, or are they entrenching you further into the world’s web? We must always ask ourselves, will my continuously doing this thing make me a better and better person, or will it make me worse and worse?

While unsaved in the university, I knew people who innocently became curious about getting high. They started off drinking juices mixed with little alcohol. And through wrong influence, indiscipline and ignorance they graduated to the hardest mixtures of alcohol, then drunkenness, then drug abuse, then addiction, then apostasy. This progression may not always be the case but we must be careful of what we engage in. It may go from bad to worse. I advise you to kill anything in you that looks like a serpent otherwise it will turn to a dragon. [Revelation 12:9]

You cannot continually dabble with sin and not get fully sucked into it. Still in university, I saw a particular girl go from having sex with her boyfriend, to having sex with her boyfriends, to having sex with strangers she met at parties, to having sex with rich strangers she met at parties, to going to parties with the hope of meeting a rich stranger who’d fancy her and take her home in exchange for cash, to actually standing on the road outside clubs with prostitutes. Just like that. In about 8 months this girl became a prostitute! Right before my very eyes. But she didn’t get there in a day. No one is born a sex addict, or a prostitute, or a reprobate. If you continually to indulge in sin you WILL go from bad to worse. It’s not rocket science. It’s not some demon somewhere. It’s a scriptural principle.

Remember Demas? Paul’s faithful companion when he was in prison at Rome. In Colossians 4:14 Paul was sending hearty greetings from this young man to churches. But look how he ended up. Some years after he was reported by the same Paul to have departed from the faith “having loved this present world [2 Timothy 4:10]. What a shame. Maybe he started by tolerating a little worldliness. A little worldly friend here, a little worldly music there. Maybe he started with liking worldliness, but with consistency he ended up loving the world which is always followed by hating God [James 4:4]. Bad to worse.

Remember Judas? This man was a demon-casting repentance-preaching apostle of God. But he tolerated greed. This greed turned to love for money. His end story? Fam, this man ended up betraying and killing God. Jesus prayed forgiveness for everyone that killed Him [Luke 23:34]. But not Judas, instead Jesus said by the time He’ll be done dealing with Judas he’ll wish he was never born [Matthew 26:24]. So Judas was the one guy responsible for killing God! What a title to have. But remember, it all started with a little greed. Bad to worse.

I’ve also heard of people who became what they shouldn’t have because of the shows they watched. Some, from hating homosexuality and all types of sexual sin started to love movie characters who lived this way. Then they got comfortable with the sin, and then suddenly “it’s not that big of a deal”. Some have ended up being homosexuals and adulterers themselves, or defenders of such. Bad to worse.

You may be locked up somewhere watching some pornography thinking “No one sees me. Plus it’s just a little porn”. You may be indulging some little sins. You may be hanging out with wrong people. You may be entertaining some evil thoughts. Trust me, you will end up where you don’t want.

You’re not going to keep pampering that one little sin without adding more. No, you will go from bad to worse. You’re not going to remain in that one bad relationship without consequences. No, it will go from bad to worse. “Be killing your sin or your sin will be killing you”.

I once dabbled with sin after receiving Christ many years ago. It started off with a little fun here and there, but I only grew worse and worse. The end result was me becoming a blatantly unrepentant sinner who was heading for eternal condemnation. Thankfully, mercy and grace showed up for me.

Thankfully, our Father has given us all we need for godly living. May His grace lead us from sin and not to sin.

You’re a Christian, don’t be getting worse and worse. Get better and better.

Sex, Drugs & the Holy Ghost


This I say then, Walk in the Spirit, and ye shall not fulfill the lust of the flesh. – Galatians 5:16

If there are any 2 major struggles Christians of our time face, they are sexual lust and drug/alcohol misuse. These sins have so pervaded the church that many have concluded that they cannot be jettisoned. Some have even gone the length of saying that these struggles are an inseparable part of the Christian journey. My precious friend however -the Holy Spirit- showed me how He is more than capable of matching these pleasures and passions like for like: ungodly sex – with actual spiritual intercourse and getting high – with godly intoxication. Watch the Holy Spirit make His case with 2 key scriptures.

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Love Over Fear

love-over-fearThere is no fear in love; but perfect love casts out fear, because fear involves torment. He who fears has not been made perfect in love. – 1 John 4:18

With the help of my Friend, the precious Holy Spirit, I have found the perfect antidote for fear, Love. Now let’s learn how to use love -according to scripture- to drive out fear!

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The Spirit, Holy


What? Know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost which is in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own? – 1 Corinthians 6:19

What is your adjective? If you were to ask a number of people who know you what adjective best describes you, what do you think their answers will be? Now what would you like it to be? Holy, knowledgeable, forgiving, hardworking?

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The Love Gauge

Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength – Mark 12:30

How much do you love God? If you were to rate your love for Jesus on a scale of 1-10 what would you rate it? Take a 10 second break to think and pick a number. Now what do you think is the greatest expression of this love? How do you think you can show this big God how much you really love Him? Well, I can help you with that.

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